thankful for a day full of sweet attitudes, a love of learning, and lots of pencil sharpening.
-thunderstorms & cooler temperatures.
-our home & having a space of our own.
-the shifting of seasons on the horizon- from the eternal play of summer to the more focused fall-ish schooling.
-quiet secret prayers coming to be, sooner or later.
-vinegar & murphy’s oil soap.
-my prayer scarves.
-old hymns & ancient prayers.
-the hope of today being all it should.
praying for rain, inspired by children, teaching littles respect- learning just as much, sweet sunday as a clan, worship in all things, it’s all love-without love i am a clanging cymbal, speaking the truth is not the same as being unloving, pushing back the start of school a week -it’s wrong to do school when it’s over 100 degrees outside, a bit sad summer is coming to a close – but still savoring the last bit, thankful, always thankful: home & family & the Spirit surrounding.
The Little darling Spring has run away
The sunshine grew too hot for her to stay
She kissed her sister, Summer,and she said
“When I am gone, you must be queen instead”
Now reigns the Lady Summer, round whose feet
A thousand fairies flock with blossoms sweet.
and here we are, i did not post on our birthdays or about vacation. nor how we’ve been summering so sweetly. i’ve neglected sharing little anecdotes and funny new words my little’s have invented. (sminch – can either be used to describe a small amount of food, “may i have a sminch of your cookie? or an act of violence between small siblings. “mama!!!! teddy sminched my arm!”.)
and here we are, three weeks from the start of a new school year. a change of season and rhythm and pace for our clan.
our summer has been glorious: birthdays, swimming, long naps, movie-watching, and always the Spirit’s leading and prompting. yes, it’s hot. hotter than usual, but we adapt. and we are thankful for air conditioning and melons and lots of water.
a new adventure: driving! i got my learner’s permit (again, at 25!) and have been practicing. i will take the driving test in the middle of august, and then i will be a traveling gypsy. my parent’s have generously and graciously blessed me (and brady+my brothers all!) with a new car. my pretty purple minivan needs a name. suggestions?
the children are well. emma is into drawing, big projects, and ‘farming’ at the moment. violette, her pet shop animals and writing. theodore is a ball of energy, a “take-off”, as we have labelled him, as it’s never too long before he takes off running. they are excited about school, even theodore. this year, emma says she wants to learn spanish and chinese. violette is excited about reading and writing.
i am still overwhelmed with gratitude, thankful for so much. always learning, always wanting to know more. always in the secret place with the Divine, co-conspiring on how to bring JOY and all other good things to earth.
Praise God, from whom all blessings flow!
a brief history of emma’s birthdays:
i need to mop. thinking about the effects of earthquakes and tsunamis, praying for peace and comfort. the sun is shining through the curtains, it makes me happy. the kids are having an adventure on the high seas in their bedroom. i am thinking about the koan ‘wash your bowl‘ and wondering if everything can be reduced to that kind of simplicity. we had 3 pairs of fingernail clippers at our old house, apparently none of them made the trip with us. loving the rhythm of making bread weekly. curious about what the Divine is up to with tonite…i know we’re meant to do this, but feel a bit apprehensive at the same time. (yet, if it’s just me and brady and the holy spirit… it’ll be a good time.) feeling the need to make something pretty, something tangible, something revolutionary.
-a good nite’s sleep & calcium/magnesium
-grace, & not being bound by forms of religion & rules & restrictions
-that my lifestyle affords a leisurely breakfast – today: omelette, toast and an orange with peppermint tea
–charlotte mason’s books (obviously, a bit antiquated in some regards)
-harry potter movie/book marathons, getting lovey on board bit by bit 🙂
-prayers from the heart, prayers from the spirit
-anticipation & excitement – wondering how our shabbat evenings will go…
1. Make a list of 5 things that you can see without getting up: our calendar, a favorite owl painting, my phone, the kids eating breakfast, the school corner
2. How do you style your hair?
throw it up in a messy half-bun. sometimes with a scarf, sometimes not.
3. What are you wearing now?
brown corduroy pants, a green tshirt, red cardigan.
4. What’s your occupation?
5. What do you hear right now?
IHOP music, the littles discussing sizes of their bowls and spoons.
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
7. What is/was for dinner?
i’m thinking i’ll test out how my pizza does in this new oven.
8. What did you do today?
so far, i’ve gotten dressed, had a bit of prayer time, checked email/facebook, and got the kids up and breakfasting. next we’ll do school, lunch, maybe take a walk, maybe have some visitors this afternoon, tidy up, cook supper while the kids play outside, eat supper, hang out til bedtime. hopefully i can catch an episode of x-files, i’m getting kind of addicted 🙂 hulu is the greatest.
9. Dog person or cat person?
10. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?
i would not change it again 🙂
11. What was the last thing that you bought?
clothes and some books for the kids.
12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
france, i’m really diggin’ france right now.
13. Where do you see yourself in five years?
not too different than where i am now 🙂 though a few months shy of 30!
14. Where’s your birthmark?
15. What are you doing this weekend?
i’m not sure yet, other than the usual shabbat friday and church sunday.
16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play? i can play a lot of instruments. never played a mandolin, so maybe that.
17. How are you?
happy, calm. hiccuping.
18. What are you doing tomorrow?
the same as today, almost 🙂
19. What are you looking forward to the most?
a lot of things. at the same time, not much. i’m contented right here 🙂
+reading ‘the practice of the presence of God’ by brother lawrence. truly life-changing and life-giving.
+feeling, rich. full. yet light, winged.
+learning that love has very little to do with feelings. and very little to do with “me”.
+giving up those little spaces where i feel justified in being unkind.
+recognizing i can nothing on my own, that i need a network of support. spiritual & physical.
+loving that my family is so closely knit together, and that i get to see my siblings and parents nearly every day.
+thankful that we are a bit over half-way through the cruel month of february.
+excited about the housewarming party and boxes of wine, wondering if there may even be challah?
we are settled, in our new home. i feel as if i can un-pause and take up blogging, photography, knitting…. simply creating again.
there is space here, space to test out my wings. space to discover. space to fill with beauty. light, fresh, clean, white. this is how i see my new space. (under the clutter of children’s debris…)
thank heavens for new beginnings.