thanks.

+apples and oranges, the perfect snacks.

+garage sale goodies: antique quilts and little tables.

+knowing that i am safe in the center of the Divine.

+waiting patiently for things to work out, to see what gigantic, creative miracle is in store.

+clouds.

+healthy, happy and non-vomiting children.

+our lovely home, and the work involved in keeping it in order.

+healthy communication, and forgiveness when toxicity creeps in.

+the joyful parenting manifesto.

today’s fleeting thoughts.

i need to mop. thinking about the effects of earthquakes and tsunamis, praying for peace and comfort. the sun is shining through the curtains, it makes me happy. the kids are having an adventure on the high seas in their bedroom. i am thinking about the koan ‘wash your bowl‘ and wondering if everything can be reduced to that kind of simplicity. we had 3 pairs of fingernail clippers at our old house, apparently none of them made the trip with us.  loving the rhythm of making bread weekly. curious about what the Divine is up to with tonite…i know we’re meant to do this,  but feel a bit apprehensive at the same time. (yet, if it’s just me and brady and the holy spirit… it’ll be a good time.) feeling the need to make something pretty, something tangible, something revolutionary.

thankful thursday

-a good nite’s sleep & calcium/magnesium

the mother’s hours

-grace, & not being bound by forms of religion & rules & restrictions

-that my lifestyle affords a leisurely breakfast – today: omelette, toast and an orange with peppermint tea

charlotte mason’s books (obviously, a bit antiquated in some regards)

-harry potter movie/book marathons, getting lovey on board bit by bit 🙂

-prayers from the heart, prayers from the spirit

-anticipation & excitement – wondering how our shabbat evenings will go…

some things i love this morning.

+ the weather right now! having the windows open and the curtains swaying in the breeze, delightful.

+ me and teddy’s morning cuddles and giggles before anyone else is up. how he says ‘mommmm’ and crawls in my lap, kisses my cheek, makes silly noises and giggles his head off.

+ joy! and music that releases joy and laughter

+ me and my brother’s x-files marathon

+ that i’m finally off of coffee and on tea.

+ funny dreams that have me laughing when i wake up.

+ pots & pans as drums, and the boisterous concerts the littles have been putting on.

+ google reader and all the inspiration from the blogs i follow.

+ establishing our housekeeping routine & waking up to a tidy house!

+ every new day, every new mercy.

a little quiz, or something like it.

1. Make a list of 5 things that you can see without getting up:                                                     our calendar, a favorite owl painting, my phone, the kids eating breakfast, the school corner

2. How do you style your hair?
throw it up in a messy half-bun. sometimes with a scarf, sometimes not.

3. What are you wearing now?
brown corduroy pants, a green tshirt, red cardigan.

4. What’s your occupation?
nurturer.

5. What do you hear right now?
IHOP music, the littles discussing sizes of their bowls and spoons.

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
teddy

7. What is/was for dinner?
i’m thinking i’ll test out how my pizza does in this new oven.

8. What did you do today?
so far, i’ve gotten dressed, had a bit of prayer time, checked email/facebook, and got the kids up and breakfasting. next we’ll do school, lunch, maybe take a walk, maybe have some visitors this afternoon, tidy up, cook supper while the kids play outside, eat supper, hang out til bedtime. hopefully i can catch an episode of x-files, i’m getting kind of addicted 🙂 hulu is the greatest.

9. Dog person or cat person?
neither, really.

10. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?
i would not change it again 🙂

11. What was the last thing that you bought?
clothes and some books for the kids.

12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
france, i’m really diggin’ france right now.

13. Where do you see yourself in five years?
not too different than where i am now 🙂 though a few months shy of 30!

14. Where’s your birthmark?
none

15. What are you doing this weekend?
i’m not sure yet, other than the usual shabbat friday and church sunday.

16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play?                                 i can play a lot of instruments. never played a mandolin, so maybe that.

17. How are you?
happy, calm. hiccuping.

18. What are you doing tomorrow?
the same as today, almost 🙂

19. What are you looking forward to the most?
a lot of things. at the same time, not much. i’m contented right here 🙂

a list: for tuesday the fifteenth of february in the year two-thousand eleven.

+reading ‘the practice of the presence of God’ by brother lawrence. truly life-changing and life-giving.

+feeling, rich. full. yet light, winged.

+learning that love has very little to do with feelings. and very little to do with “me”.

+giving up those little spaces where i feel justified in being unkind.

+recognizing i can nothing on my own, that i need a network of support. spiritual & physical.

+loving that my family is so closely knit together, and that i get to see my siblings and parents nearly every day.

+thankful that we are a bit over half-way through the cruel month of february.

+excited about the housewarming party and boxes of wine, wondering if there may even be challah?

what is time?

yesterday was the ‘anniversary’ of the most awful day of my life. my mantra in the days and weeks that followed was “someday it will be ten years from now”. yesterday marked ten years, and i cried. i cried for my younger self at the time: scared, confused, hurt, and feeling like no there was no one hearing or believing her. i cried for brokenness of families and the hurt of so many others just like me. i cried happy tears, happy because ten years down the road is beautiful, full of love and goodness. i cried because the grace of God is a tangible, real and very rich thing. and i cried because it is finished.

un-pause.

we are settled, in our new home. i feel as if i can un-pause and take up blogging, photography, knitting…. simply creating again.

there is space here, space to test out my wings. space to discover. space to fill with beauty. light, fresh, clean, white. this is how i see my new space. (under the clutter of children’s debris…)

thank heavens for new beginnings.

 

what’s new, or ancient.

+new habits: praying the hours; being vulnerable – my heart wide open; crying appropriately; manifesting compassion in greater ways.

+ruminating about new adventures and a learning path.

+family and home life, finding a simple and pleasant rhythm, hitting the groove. we are not perfect, but we are love.

+the spiritual journey of dreadlocks.

+counting it all joy: sickness, frustration, syrup poured on the freshly mopped floor.

+the little ones: expanding vocabularies, free imaginations, creativity abounding, acquiring new tastes and expressions.

+planning for a new business endeavor, praying for favor, diligence and always a right heart.